Starting in the summer of 2017 I really started contemplating weight loss surgery. As my interest peeked in finding out more, I was also finding out and seeing more people around me have had it. One of my cousins had it and having her that close to me made it easier to ask questions.
For me, contemplating all of that made me feel like crap. Like I had not succeeded with my own health. I felt ashamed of myself for even wanting to contemplate if this option was for me.
I started googling... And asking my cousin surface questions, like what surgery did she have.. and how long did it take her to get back to work. Google.. Well google just showed me that this is not at all the easy way out. For those that think that weight loss surgery is the easy way out stand by I'll probably write a post on that as well.
Back to what I found on google... Okay so the picture on the right is one of the things I found.. There are quite a few different types of surgery you can have.. Now in 2018 they don't do too much of the bands anymore so you can ignore the first picture.. But the other three are still a thing. 
bass surgery center. So I did what would hurt me and clicked on BMI calculator that is hooked to their website. This calculator you enter your weight, high in feet and inches and calculate.
Then you are given a list of Event Dates so you can select a seminar in order to find out more information about the center at highland hospital and more about the surgery and outcomes them selves.
Bariatric surgery is most appropriate for people with a BMI (body mass index) of 40 or more... Lets just say I qualify. So I picked a date, I called and I registered to attend a seminar which at that point was about a month away. I felt like i needed time to decide it I was actually going to go to the seminar to get information about it, or if I was going to bail and not go.
Needless to say the day came around and I ended up going to the seminar. I felt absolutely terrible the whole time. I beat myself up a lot in life, and this wasn't one of those things were I was going to be nice to myself. I beat myself up in my head about needing to be there.
I listened to all the information, taking notes, taking it all in..
And holy cow there was a lot to take it.. On the plus side they gave us a lot of information in a folder for us to be able to read and re-read.. In leaving they let us know that the office would call us to see if we were interested in moving forward in making a first appointment or if we had any questions.
When my phone rang a few days later and it was a Rochester number I quickly answered and scheduled a physical with them. I figured at the worst, it was a physical and I could always say no after one appointment. I could say no up to them taking me into the operating room really.
I hadn't talked to my family about it at all.. But on my thinking cap went about questions I wanted to ask, wondering if my insurance covers all of that and so many thoughts. I finally quit beating myself up about it after I made that appointment and started focusing on what might be the best decision for me. What was best for me, because damn this is about me and my health!
I knew going to that appointment, and well the seminar before that appointment was even made that gastric bypass is not at all the easy way out. But I went in with many questions as well.